Writing is

Writing is my meditation.

My mind runs at full capacity,
trying to understand
everything happening around me —
facts,
feelings,
thoughts,
ideas,
questions.

Sometimes, I cannot understand them all at once.
So I write.
I give my thoughts time
to breathe,
to settle,
to become clear.

Writing is my thought process.

I take what is scattered in my mind
and shape it into words.

And when the words appear on the page,
I can finally see
what has been hiding in my own mind.

I search for the right words.
I weigh them carefully.

Because I am afraid
of hurting someone
with the things I say.

Maybe that is why
speaking is sometimes difficult for me.

But on the page,
I can slow down.
I can listen to my thoughts
before I let them go.

Writing is my testimony.

I want people to know
how tenderly God cares for us.

I want to leave a record
of the miracles
I might otherwise forget —
the quiet ones,
the unexpected ones,
the ones I recognize
only after looking back.

I want my words to say,

God was here.

Writing is my prayer.

Sometimes,
I am more comfortable
writing my prayers
than speaking them
in the morning
or at night.

Because I do not simply want
to tell God what I want.

I want to know
what He wants.

I want to listen.

I choose my words carefully,
not because God needs perfect words,
but because I want my heart
to be humble
before Him.

Writing is my meditation.

Writing is my thought process.

Writing is my testimony.

Writing is my prayer.

And perhaps,
for me,
writing is a way
of listening.